A Monday post? Wutttt????
I know. You’ll see why. :) This is the “very specific reason” I mentioned in the previous post.
This is a continuation of last week’s post about my chronic illness. And about why I decided to share it with you at all. And why I’m going to be MIA for the next few weeks.
The short answer: I’m having surgery tomorrow to fix my leg.
The long answer: Over the years, EDS has caused my legs to become crooked (it’s way too complicated to explain how in this post). They’ve only gotten more crooked and painful as I’ve grown older, and it will continue to worsen unless the crookedness is repaired.
So how do they repair it?
(Skip the next paragraph if you’re squeamish)
My orthopedic surgeon is going to perform a closing wedge high tibial osteotomy. (Say THAT ten times fast. ;) ) Google it if you want to know the details, but in short, they will be breaking my leg, taking a wedge of bone out, realigning the bone, and securing it in place.
(Squeamish part over)
As you can imagine, the recovery for this surgery is pretty intense. And long. And requires a lot of sitting still. None of which I’m very excited about. (And I have to have this surgery twice…the second one will be six months from now.)
It will be at least three months until I will be able to function at a semi-normal level, without the use of a wheelchair/crutches.
And that scares me.
There are so many verses in the Bible about fear–or rather, about not being fearful!!! My sweet friends have been pointing those out to me, encouraging me to memorize them, and pointing me to Christ and His promises to care for His children no matter what.
Since I’m such a music-oriented person, I turn to music when I get scared. I have a LOT of music in iTunes/Amazon/Spotify, but here are a couple of my “chill out” songs that have been playing on repeat lately.
Though it sounds cliche, I really do try to focus on the positives in all situations–but especially in this situation with surgery. Anyone with a chronic illness knows that if you can’t find positives and take joy in little things, life will be 100% more miserable.
One of the huge positives about this surgery is that it gives me (or rather, my legs) a second chance. I know my body will never work “right” or “normally,” but this particular surgery is supposed to give me significantly more function, as well as less pain, than I have right now.
And that alone makes the prospective struggle of recovery worthwhile.
Tomorrow (Tuesday), my parents and I will be making a short road-trip to a (relatively) close city. We’ll be going to the hospital where my amazing orthopedic surgeon works to have the procedure will be performed on my right leg. I’ll stay at the hospital overnight for sure, maybe longer depending on how things are going. (Not even kidding…one of my biggest fears is that the food will be nasty. Yes, I am a snob. ;) )
As with any surgery, there are a lot of things that can potentially go wrong. And because I have a bleeding disorder than keeps my blood from clotting properly, there is an even higher likelihood of something going awry. My doctors are working together and taking every precaution to ensure that my body cooperates like it should, but there is always the possibility of something going wrong.
So if you think about it tomorrow, would you be praying that there are no complications during surgery? I would sincerely appreciate it!
I’ll be keeping my Instagram updated with surgery/recovery things as much as possible. Be sure to follow that if you want to stay up to date–I won’t be posting surgery-related things on the blog. :)
I’m going to be out of commission for a while, but never fear…I’ve got exciting several blog posts scheduled and ready to go! :)